Commitorum Metus

I saw him again today....
He had a hair cut.
he was different today,
Looked darker, sad and misty eyed.
Something was wrong,
I touched his chin, then torso.
Leaned in and sucked on the lower lip.
He pushed me away,
His voice wobbled with restrained emotion,
Why? He asked me, WHY??
I have a puzzled expression,
He is my friend, he is someone I know.
I was still confused.
'I LOVE YOU' he said..
I smiled...............
What happened to the commitment phobe I knew
the insouciant Flirt?
The man who had sordid lust tales?
Where was he? Who is this?
With squinched eyes, I stared at him,
Almost like I was looking into his soul..
He stood up, firm arms on his waist,
I looked at the familiar bulge.
I Smiled, but he did not smile back.
I was jerked to realness.
He Walked to the door and turned the knob,
Make a decision, choose he told me..
Then he walked away.
He just LOST me........

frozen Lemons

The usual 'reverie',
Its hppening again,
Despair, worries, shame.
Palm under chin, head spins..
Its different this tme,
Feelings there, groggy thoughts..
Uncertainty of tomorrow's world,
Unstated wth today..
Would she get through?
There surely is light somewhere,
Can she wait for it?
Too many lost, Too many gone.....
She's in a daze,
The Tower seems reposeful yet distressing today.
She is faraway from the world beneath!
Hope knocks in a corner,
How can she begin again?
Who will make it clear to her?
Who will be a picket to her?
The walls are falling down,
Jumping is her resolve......
Tear-filled eyes,
How the hell did she get here?
She's lost, drowning out,
A squall!!!!
She is fine now......'YOU neglected her'

why bother?

Why bother?

You meet in unexpected circumstances or even a perfect meeting,

You 'click', talk for hours, go for dates, spend alot of time 'sitting'.

You get comfortable, share more, relate stories, BOND.

You count the days and months, then you give in to 'that' which happens in a split second.

You allow it, enjoy it, feel it, long for it, invent it..

You wake up one morning and 'life' happens so fast before you can absorb it.
They come gradually, withdrawal, lies, betrayals, silence.
You wonder how and where it went awry?
Shut out, retrocede into shell, emotional detachment.
You ask me, why so uptight? why the walls?
Why so edgy, why a loner, why so insensitive?
Going through this several times would either build or break you.
Don't get me wrong, i believe in love, relationships, happy-ever-afters,
I encourage you to take risks, fall in love, LIVE!
But for me, aloofness towards emotional entanglements works, don't want to keep asking myself
WHY BOTHER????

Gone too Soon

''As I was saying ..................... How u dey?dis is my lmtn,my glo is off.bukky"

There are different people in this world..
Some are here for a purpose, some fulfil that purpose and for some its short-lived.
Some are angels here to touch lives all their days, some are angels here to dwell with humans.......... To teach us Love,growth,acceptance and many more..

I met this young girl some time ago.
Bubbly, sweet, always asking questions,
quiet, Calm and full of Life.
Very Enthusiastic about what's going on around her.
Spent 4hours with her and felt like I knew her forever.
We exchanged numbers, spoke occassionally, She reached out so many times and I would keep promising we would meet soon, one unusual thing about our conversations was the smile I had on my face afterwards.. She was that kind of person, you could feel her warmth just by hearing her speak..

It didn't seem fair, you were so young,
You left behind broken hearts and worried minds,
We Will never forget the warmth you brought us,
Your faith, your presence, your passion for never wasting a second of Life.
We are consoled you are in a better place,
You will be remembered dear friend.
Always in our Hearts...
Rest in Peace Bukky!

Happiness within

Today i am writing about happiness 'a state of being' embrace it, accept it, reel in it, breathe it, think it, imagine it, believe it, dream it..
Be careful in the pursuit of happiness tho so you dont fall into 'fake' happiness. You know there are people who posses material possessions just to feel happy, some look for people to make them happy.
But really you dont need anyone or anything but yourself to be happy, because its the key to success.
Personally, i use the scriptures and i back it up with prayers, acceptance and most importantly appreciation(GOD and MYSELF)..
My 'happy scriptures' are prov17:22, ps34:8, and favourite deut7:14 that's an assurance of what God wrote about me.. I read and meditate and dwell in his presence and believe me, it creates room for inner peace and satisfaction. God wants us to be happy.

- Happiness comes from within, its a choice.
- Happiness is the light of love, giving and receiving love.
- Happiness is appreciation, being thankful.
- Happiness is pleasure, satisfaction.
- Happiness is well being, a state of mind.
- Happiness is fearlessness.
- Happiness is contentment, accepting nothing is permanent.
- Happiness is the joy of achievement.

Happiness is your birthright. Its the key to attainment.. Think happy, feel happy, be happy!! L♥√ع .....